try to forget the fact that you talk to yourself.

ride the bus.

walk down the street.

throw out all your clothes and worldly belongings and hitch hike to California.

when you get there, pray.

pray out loud on a street corner and have someone record it on cheap video.

kill yourself. 

then, send the video to your high school reunion, where you will most definitely

not be missed (you never were).

they will be whispering and laughing, trying to remember your name...the guy who took

a trip to Hollywood. 

don’t invite these people to the funeral.

in fact, after you kill yourself...buy a big straw hat and move to Mexico. 

lay on the beach and drink cervezas. 

don’t come back for 20 years.

love,

Los Angeles.